PyRo's DeN
Lyrics...
Call me irresponsible
Call me unreliable
Throw in undependable, too
Do my foolish alibis bore you?
Well, I'm not too clever, I
I just adore you
So, call me unpredictable
Tell me I'm impractical
Rainbows, I'm inclined to pursue
Call me irresponsible
Yes, I'm unreliable
But it's undeniably true
That I'm irresponsibly mad for you
Do my foolish alibis bore you?
Girl, I'm not too clever, I
I just adore you
Call me unpredictable
Tell me that I'm so impractical
Rainbows, I'm inclined to pursue
Go ahead call me irresponsible
Yes, I'm unreliable
But it's undeniably true
I'm irresponsibly mad for you
You know it's true
Oh, baby it's true
About Me...
Name: Soon Jian Tai Hasita
Aka
Hiroshi, Matsu Aburakoji, Ghost, Witch, LiLeutral and IT Helpdesk
Age: 18
Birthday: 19/02/1988
Republic Polytechnic
Diploma in Biotechnology Year 1
Likes: DUH! Dogs!
Cartoons like Balto!
Anime like Bleach
Ginga Densetsu Weed!
Dislike: Domestic Cats!
No offence!
Hobbies: Playing music, Writing, Pencil Shading And Reading!
A long day...
Today... Nothing much though... Just watching some anime... Naruto to be exact...
Not really went go these past few weeks... Maybe it is the seventh month... or maybe it is some of my friends have exam now... Still a bit sianZ... But also can lah... Used to be a loner... Used to the silence... Used to the sound of my mind.
Maybe some of you out there have been reading my blog often must be wondering how come this cheerful person can be a loner? Well... to start out is like when I was younger... I had not much friendZ... or should I say not even one since the start out of primary school... No friendZ to play and talk to... So I sat at one corner and start to play with myself... Play what..? Some sort of gameZ that is required the use of the mind... Even though my elder brother is in same school as me... he goes off with his friendZ... So ya alone that is... Luckily, I don't have imaginary friendZ or else it will be worse... So ya... even at home, I am still alone as my parentZ put to work... my elder brother with his friendZ... My younger brother is in childcare... The only time someone noticed me is that I scored well in testZ or examZ... Sometimes I really HATE that!!!
First, It will hurt my elder brother feelingZ as being an elder brother means you have to be smarter and better than the younger oneZ... So most of the times, I will be stupid in front of him as I do not want him to dislike me as I outshine him...
Secondly, It hurtZ me alot!!! I have to earn something that in exchange to gain attention from my parentZ!!! Can't just some parentZ see that we need attention every now and then even we do not scored well in testZ and examZ or outshine other people?
Lastly, It hurt my siblingZ againZ... as I will get my parentZ attention a lot that they are being outcasted!!! Then againZ, they seldom talk to me about their thingZ... Ironically, I have been outcasted by my own brotherZ...
Life as a loner when I was younger but luckily in secondary school there are more better people than in primary school... I was no longer lonely since then... even though some people don't understand my thinking... But still they are there for me... However, I still have not found anyone that perharps knows the inner me... Still looking for those who really knows the inner me...
Loneliness is within me...
Darkness is within me...
Looking for someone who brings the Light and Warmth...
To take the pain within me...
Sorry arh... This perharps one of the periods where I been in the extreme depression... It had been 3 years I had ever felt such deep depression mood...
Still I have to be back to my ownself tommorow... cheering for people and cheering for myself... And of course disturb some people hahaha...
posted by Dogz Lifez @ 9:27 PM
