Weeks have passed and depression long gone...
Sad now? Not really much more happier than before hahaha...
Looked at the bright side very often...
Depressed thoughts can be scary at times hahaha...
Ok much about what happen is that I rest at home ALOT and waste ALOT time!!!
Went to zouk lah wearing KIMODO and before that walk in bugis with KIMODO!!!(hope I didn't spell wrongly)
Then decided not to go in later coz some ppl cannot go in...
But still it is fun to do something different sometimes...
I think today quite fun also but the faci not happy...
The problem damn easy sia but we took it for granted and in the end not her expectation...
I think today quite fun also as meet some ex classmates hahaha...
So what about past weeks? Sort of blur now but even got things to write is slack at home hahaha...
Againz something is pestering me since weeks ago...
The rush of sugar...
I think forget it bah...
Must FOCUS!!!
Cannot BE DISTRACTED!!!
Earn more $$ for the sake for future!!!
Learn more things which is my main aim in my whole life!!!
Be a vet as what I dream to BE!!!
Ok...I think I back to focus...
No more sugary thoughts as knowing it will not happen at all...
Haizzz...Hope this but yet don't want to affect the person life and my life hahaha...
Rather be friends...
Case close bah...
I think time to sleep liao...
Pyro,
Prince of Lies and Falsehood,
Flamez Outz!
posted by Dogz Lifez @ 9:00 PM
Book to the inner demon inside of me...
Yesterday, went to open the book of inner demon inside of me...
Saw the evil thoughts and depressing thoughts inside of it...
Damn depressed and slowly, emotions of anger and confusion came out...
It is as though I have been controlled by my demon...
Letting my demon take my mind...lose in the maze of my mind created by my demon...
Sometimes, what I type don't feel like it is me...
It is like the demon had control of my body...
Where is my angel...?
Will he/she appear if I found the book of angel...?
I think I have reached to the ultimate depression le...
Yesterday was the last straw...
My angel perhaps lose to the demon and rest liao...
Harted, confusion and depression is what now I experienced...
No mortal words can get through me as it becomes like a whisper...
Unable to reach me at all...
No longer believe there is a thing call friends anymore...
Think that life is just a pain...
Just go and die and forget about it...
If someone console me, I will take it as they pity at my pathetic existence...
I just go and die and let people forget about me...
It is better that way...
Throw me in the coffin and send me off to hell...
Let Death be torturing for me...
Visiting hell will be the best thing ever have...
It reminds me about someone I talk with...
I speak of how is he to die...
Perhaps, I caused him to be even depressed...
In that case, it is one wrong deed so bring me to hell...
Tried to close the book...
Can't closed it...
All I can do is stand there...
Crying...
Hoping to find the angel...
Hoping to close the book...
But all was nevertheless...
USELESS...
A pathetic excuse for a human being...
Lost in the deep dark thoughts forever...
Pyro,
Prince of Lies and Falsehood,
Flamez Outz!
posted by Dogz Lifez @ 10:14 AM
A bad day...Yet there is some good in it...
So long never blog liao...Recently went to paul Birthday party and got sick since the start of the haze...Quite sianz actually as I miss two classes but I got go for two UTs and that's ok as UT are much more important hahaha...But still thanks russ for the 1 litre of tears recommendation as it is quite nice hahaha...
Today, like finally can see the class some people true colours...Just only some wild Japanese clothing and all they do is siao here and siao there...Like so no respect for the designer who design these clothes...say until like so abnormal...I think if they go Japan they are the most abnormal one...I think cultural clashes...but still I do not think there is a need to insult until so terrible like that...
Somemore after seeing a video from youtube about Japanese tourture and some stereotype that Japanese are that kind of people...For me is like it is so long already...get on with life and it is like the past and present isn't the same anymore so don't be mislead by media!!! Holding a grudge like this, I think is kind of silly...
Anyway, talk about this can make blood boil as can see how they doing until so immature...First time seeing a 16 year old and above so immature...It is true that it is a bit too much on the dressing but there is no need for the insults...
Anyway, besides that have to Thanks to my ex enterprise faci LKK!!! He so good sia send us preparation for UT and mock questions that may appear for the UT!!! No longer teaching us still care about us...where can you find such person nowadays...Thanks anyway LKK!!!
Pyro,
Prince of Lies and Falsehood
Flamez Outz
posted by Dogz Lifez @ 8:46 PM
Finally an Update!!!
After So Long my Blog can be already rotten hahaha...
So far in school it have been great and nothing really to talk about except that things are getting better and better. Like get to talk more and felt easier to express myself...
More about today is that I broke my headphone...So angry at myself at the first place I should not have brought the headphone to chalet...Bring then later spoil...Don't know who the hell go and step it lor!!!
Anyway, It is kind of sweet that Jovina gave LOLIPOPS to May, Clarice and ME!!! Awww.... So sweet~ hahaha!!!
Then today draw a number of drawing using GIMP...
This is a nicest one I think...
Thatz all for today!!!
More about my feeling now...Bored and tired...Sleep in bus and nearly miss my stop...
Pyro,
Prince of Lies and Falsehood
Flamez Outz
posted by Dogz Lifez @ 8:06 PM
